25 has been tough, that ruthless kind of experience.
I stepped away from all I knew, choosing to walk in obedience and it has taken a constant reminder of who my Father is.
It has had me stretched to an extent I was certain that my elastic limit was exceeded.
It began with being on the verge of settling down to God calling me out of that relationship and 11 months later burying him. 💔
I have had a season of uttermost silence from everyone around me that led to beautiful intimate moments with God and thereafter He slowly reintroduced a select few.
I have been so close to it, only to have a Jacob Rachel stunt pulled on me. Life so jumbled up that I resigned to God’s plan and threw out my own.
I have had too many instances where I was sighing in relief over a storm that just came to an end only to find myself in another as I inhaled after.
I have craved for closure one too many times and struggled with letting go.
I have had to fight away my introverted side in its extreme more than I’ve ever done just to preserve the friendships God has brought my way.
I have been shaken to the core and had my youngest sister cuddle me to sleep more times than I’d like to admit.
I have found myself in such murky waters courtesy of situations that I didn’t sign up for but I had unknowingly been in too deep.
I have constantly had to maintain a brave face even through those moments that I wasn’t sure whether I got lost in the fight to survive.
God has put me on an extended lesson to trust Him with my finances and opportunities He brings my way for wealth creation especially in those moments that ‘I couldn’t afford to be on zero’. Simply put, barely surviving when much is needed out of what you have or nothing at all comes your way.
I have cried my eyes out countless times and had meltdowns that only my bedroom floor could give a tale on.
But out of this God has birthed much that I remain amazed.
He has guided me through the storms and calmed His child.
I have seen Him use these storms to bring glory back to Him.
He has reminded me that He is my Father, the giver of best gifts, all I needed to do was trust Him.
He has spoken over me in times of despair and insecurities with the reminder that if He allowed it my way, it is because He knew I was a victor right from the beginning.
He’s called me back into those intimate moments, reminding me of His love.
He’s wrapped me up in His arms to comfort, cuddled me to sleep when grieve was taking a huge toll and sent me love notes.
I choose to see these as badges of honor rather than scars. A testimony of God’s faithfulness as my Redeemer lives.
Nothing goes to waste where God is concerned.☺️
26, here I come😊.
Christ is in me, I am enough.😊
HIGHCARBLIVING 